Rejection

Rejection, dejection, internal reflection,
seeking cause of any transgression.
Ruminate to find the source,
what could I have done to change the course?
To not feel the way this makes me feel.
Should I have satisfied with greater zeal,
showed more interest, more sympathy?
Can’t figure it out for the life of me.
Sometimes we convey something unintended,
perhaps too caught up, person offended.
Unintentional, without malice or hate,
no warning given, now its too late.
Beyond repair, the relationship gone,
in an instant changed, self-doubt is spawned.
I should be perfect, never wrong,
always loved, never ignored.
Not realistic, not optimistic,
emotion down, understanding why.
Sometimes you don’t need to try.
Embrace the feeling, know the pain,
ride the wave inside your brain.
It will be relieved if you give it a chance,
soon you will find another circumstance.
You’re not nearly as bad as you thought you were,
pleasing everyone a losing deed.
Even if you try you won’t always succeed.
All thoughts and feelings of others you can’t know,
do your best, let go of the rest.
Account for mistakes, try to make them right,
sometimes in your humiliation others delight.
Accept yourself and your own limitations,
no one can control all situations.
When you feel bad, write it down,
express the emotion, release the frown.
Allow yourself to be frustrated,
maintain love for self, perfection overrated.
Find again your joy, change attitude,
most of the time, improve your mood.
It’s okay to release things you cannot fix,
self-loathing not helpful, mental tricks,
don’t always suffice when the going is rough.
Wait it out even if you’ve had enough.
In a day or two, a week or three,
certain change you will eventually see.
Believe, be open, allow transition,
better days ahead without suspicion.
No need to catastrophize, overgeneralize,
the truth will ultimately materialize.
Change perspective, adjust your view,
problem list narrowed, only a few.
To focus your effort, improving, refining,
self-hatred released, identity defining.
Believe in yourself, do all that you can,
if rejection occurs, you will have a plan.